Some times you have to Let Go

Life is one crazy adventure. About a year ago Jon and I got wind of a church plant in Jacksonville FL. Ever since then we have been praying hard about that decision and visited to see if we fit and if it was where God was calling us, praying about being able to be supported if we went there, and for God to just make clear where He is calling us.

Well everything looked and felt like it was very positive, but there was one big negative that kept us very hesitant. Money. The church plant didn't have any to support us and they weren't sure if the District would have any money to support us. So a waiting game began. We continued praying about it, but our prayers slowly changed to a prayer that sounded like this, "God, I pray that you would give us direction as to where you are leading us in our next adventure." FL some how started to slip out of the prayer and I never even realized it. It is a good thing too! I didn't want to be praying for FL and trying to force that decision and make that happen. I really want to go next to the place that God is calling us to go. To say the least, this waiting game has been stressful and very long and I have just been ready to know one way or the other.

February came. The month that the budget proposal was presented to the board. Tuesday, 2/22/11, was the day that it was presented. We waited patiently, trusting that we would finally get some answers and we would be able to decide what to do next. The next day we get a call and email about what happened at the proposal meeting. The Board didn't approve it. They haven't been approving any budget revisals. I can't say that we were really shocked there. A little disappointed, but not really shocked.

Jon and I talked about it and I got his view on the whole situation and I shared how I felt, and we came to the conclusion that God didn't have FL as our next adventure and that we needed to let FL go. So we let this whole situation go. We knew we needed to start pursuing our options and continue to seek God's direction.

Thursday, 2/24/11, Jon met with the Mid-America District Superintendant (that is Nebraska, Iowa, Colorado and maybe a couple other states) to see if there were any pastoral positions available in this district. I really didn't know what to expect from this meeting, but thought it was a great next step in pursuing our options.

The DS told Jon that he just got a call the day before (2/23/11, the day we let go of FL) that there is going to be a position open in a church in Grand Junction, CO. They talked about the position and how Jon would be a really good fit and that he wants to pass Jon's resume on to this church. It was a very exciting meeting.

Jon and I don't know where this will lead or if it is just another learning opportunity, but we are super excited to see where it will go. This would be awesome because we would only be 5 hours away from my family now, instead of 9! We would be able to see them a little more. We feel that it is just a God thing. So keep us in your prayers as we continue to seek God for our future!

Work

Work. Work is one of those things that you can either love so much that you become a work-aholic, or that you hate so much that you complain about having to go to work every day. You would quit your job if you could afford too, but the reality is you can't because you have bills to pay.

I would say that I am neither. I don't love to work, but I get extremely bored when I am out of work. I enjoying having a job, obviously for the money, but also just to give me something to do with my day. When I don't work, like on the weekends I love it! I love being in my own home and with my things and just to relax and hang out with my husband.

Today I realized that I am very blessed with my job. I love my job! It is perfect for me. That is hard to say sometimes, but with this job I actually don't mind getting up in the morning to get to work. There have been jobs where I have gotten up or where I have gotten out of class and the last thing I wanted to do was go to that job. But that isn't the case with this one. I can get up in the morning and be excited for my job. I can come back from vacation and I actually feel ready to go back to work. Shocker I know, but it is true!

God has truly blessed me with my job. I am a nanny, and sometimes finding a family that matches my personality can be hard, and doesn't always happen, but God has given me that with the Milligan's.

One of my prayer's every morning when Jon and I do our devotions is that God would use me to be a blessing in this families life. That I would remember that I do my work to glorify God and not for myself. I believe God has heard that prayer and has actually turned it around to bless me instead.

When our time in Omaha is up, I am going to have a really hard time leaving them. They have been so good to me and I am so grateful and thankful for them. I probably won't find another family like them to work for or possibly not even nanny any more after this job. It is bitter sweet thinking that we only have about 4 more months here and that means I only have that much more time with the Milligan's.

God showed me today as I was leaving work just how much I truly have to be thankful about. He has blessed me with a great godly man to be my husband, He provides for us daily with different blessing, He has allowed our beater cars to continue to run and not die so we have transportation, He provides enough money to have food on the table and a roof over our heads, and He has provided us with amazing jobs.

Our God is so Good! I love when I awaken to how much he loves me and provides for me. Makes for a great day :D