As I was sitting at the retreat, it hit me that this is our last retreat, our last semester with 8:08. It was a sad moment... I almost cried, but had to hold it in because the others would be wondering why I am crying and I didn't want to have to explain! haha. It has entered into the scary time of the internship. The time where we are transitioning out and preparing our selves to go....... well, somewhere. Where ever God is taking us.
God also showed me that I shut down too quickly when I know we are leaving a place. He showed me that that is wrong, and I feel very motivated to give my best this semester and leave with a bang! I don't want to shut down any more, and I have realized that by doing that it doesn't benefit anyone, not even me. I just feel more depressed. So here is to a new beginning in myself.
Omaha has been a great place to start our our life as a married couple. We have had great friends, great internship opportunity, great jobs, great struggles in all areas, and great memories. I wouldn't want to do it any other way. I am going to miss all of my friends here dearly when we leave to go SOMEWHERE, but I know that God has placed them in my life for this season, and that we will stay in touch, even if that means just through facebook, which I am truly grateful for that technology!
I will admit that this will probably be the weirdest transition, mostly because we knew going into this experience that it would only be for 2 years and then we would be leaving. I also admit that I do get excited to leave, because change can be exciting, but at the same time I am scared out of my mind that God is going to take me somewhere that isn't close to anyone I know (like family) and I am going to be miserable, But I am reminded of a quote from Mother Theresa where she said, "I know God won't give me anything I can't handle. I just wish he didn't trust me so much." That is how I feel sometimes, but I know where ever He calls us to go, I will serve Him.
LEADERS RETREAT!!!
The Leaders Retreat was awesome! Last semester (I learned this at the retreat) a lot of the leaders were not committed whole heartedly. We all admitted that we all failed big time in a lot of different areas of the ministry. We didn't make Thursday night prayers a priority, we weren't intentional about meeting with our small group attendee's one on one, we didn't feel like being very social and stuck to our friend groups. God convicted us all very hard. God also renewed our zeal and our passion for the group. We called each other out and we all committed to give 100%, 100% of the time. This semester is going to be exciting. We all left the retreat excited to see how God is going to move and pumped to lead our small groups. (Last semester I don't really think we were that pumped).
I am excited to be able to be part of the 8:08 College Community this final semester. I believe God is holding out on giving us an answer as to where we are supposed to go afterwards because He is teaching me to give my all 100% of the time, even when there is an end time. He is teaching me to not shut down early and coast through, and I am excited to take this lesson and apply it as best I can. This semester is going to be a great one! A better-sweet one, but it will be awesome along the way!
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