So the time has come... It is almost here... tomorrow in fact. We will head to Florida to check out this church plant in Jacksonville. If we feel like that is where God is calling us, then we will move there.... in like 2 months!!! Crazy i know! You would think that I would be used to so much change and drastic life change with being a PK, but it never gets easy to uproot yourself and move to a new place. I am freaking out!
We have been praying about this for some time now. I feel like it has been about a year... and it probably has, but more specifically about this adventure it's probably been about 9 months. I am very ready to finally know whether we are staying or going. I get all nervous because I know that after this weekend, we will most likely know whether or not we will be moving to FL.
Wondering about our praying process? well this has been it for the most part. I started out praying in January for God to prepare my heart for where he would be calling us to move to this next year, and that he would move us closer to family. I struggle with homesickness and not being able to see my family very often. So from January to about March/April, that is what I prayed every morning. Then in the early spring time we got a tip about this church plant in FL from my father-in-law. So Jon contacted this guy that was the Church planting director of the district down there. Everything seemed kind of exciting at the time, especially after the winter we had. I was ready to move that day to a tropical climate. So for about two months or so we were in contact with Alfredo and getting some information. Our prayers then changed to, "God show us whether or not you are calling us to FL. Make it clear and give us good discernment about the situation." Along with still praying to be closer to family. Well as it turns out my brother-in-law and sister-in-law live in Jacksonville. It was feeling like God was totally leading us to Jacksonville.
Then it is summer. We don't hear back from them pretty much through the whole summer. We shut down to thinking about FL and start praying that God would just continue to show us where he is leading us. Our next option was to Move in with my parents in CO after this internship, and I am super excited! I would get to be with my family and watch my nephews grow up! The best fix... and to also live rent free for a while to pay off loans... what could be better? Just as Jon and I were agreeing to move out there, and me getting all excited and feeling that it is the best situation for us, God has Brian, the church planter of the church call Jon and say we want you to fly down and check out the church because we are still very interested in you as being the pastor of the church! FREAKING OUT NOW!!!
I had totally moved on from FL and was set on CO. I don't like being told my plans aren't going to work out. I love having control! (which really isn't a good thing, but that's a different story.) So our prays turned back to FL and for God's guidance and for it to be very clear whether or not we are supposed to go there. This time though, neither one of us are very excited at first. We know our financial situation and we know that we have to be very wise about this situation, and to be honest, CO is our safe option and FL was/is freaking scary!!
So for about 4 months straight we have been praying about FL and asking those who are close to us to pray for us as well. It's such a huge decision! We are both more excited now, i mean, we would be close to family and to our new beautiful little Niece! But I'm still nervous. Now, though, I can safely say it is an excited nervousness, with a little bit of fear.
But even with that fear, and something that I like to forget, but always know is true, God Loves me and knows me better than I know myself. He knows how much I can handle and when it all would be too much. He knows our money situations and knows our needs there, and he knows that I am scared. And for all that, I know that my God is big, and that he is my daddy, and that know matter how scared, how lonely, how depressed i may feel, He is always there for me ready to hold me and to guide me on this adventure he has me on.
So pray for us!!! We are leaving tomorrow to check out a place that could take us on the biggest adventure yet. I am very excited to finally know whether it be yes or it be no, but to finally know one way or the other where we will be heading.
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