Discouraged? Disappointed? or Just in the Dumps?

So I am not sure which one of those words in my title I am actually feeling at the moment... Maybe all of them to be quite frank.

Life has been really rough to me right now. I feel that God hasn't given me any answers to anything I have been praying about for the past year. I pray and pray and pray that He would give us direction and clarity as to where He would be leading us and taking us and just what we are supposed to do in the future, but He is silent. He isn't answering, and it makes me angry. Some people say it's foolish to be mad at God and to be Angry at Him; that it isn't right. Well, for me, it's how I work things out with God. It's how I can fully communicate to God my heart. It's not an anger that says "I hate God and I don't trust him any more." It's more of an anger that says "God I am angry! I don't understand! Speak to me. I am trying to listen and do what you want for my life, but You are giving no answers after praying and praying and praying. I need you in this time. Give us some clarity Please!"

Florida has no money for us. There is possibly a housing stipend, but there is not a paycheck or benefits, two things of which we need. Colorado, and living with my parents is our other option at the moment, but the only expense knocked out there is Rent. And we don't have jobs out there, we would have to find them, and they are scarce.

I feel that I/we are just stuck in a hole that got filled with cement and we can't get out. We can't find a chisel to break free. And once we were free, we still would be stuck in the hole with no way out. I need a way out!!!

So I am in this place of anger and confusion. I almost feel bitter at the present state of mind. I have been praying for answers for about a year, and yet I only have more questions. I am at my wits end. I feel like I can't do it anymore. God I need answers!! I don't know what else to ask for or to do or to say. I'm tired of the silence and I am ready for you to make clear where we are supposed to go or what we are supposed to do!

Please!